my life might be simpler if procrastination wasn't invented.

lower case letters are fun.
i procrastinate way too much.

i am right now. i should be doing math homework, or doing that review, or making art. but instead i'm sitting here, my top half bundled up in a sweatshirt, my bottom half only in boxers and hella cold. in my basement. in the dark.
just typing.

reading stories about people isolated in the wilderness makes me happy. there's something about them that attracts me. i love the simplicity and the naturalness of it.
no one is around. it's just you, your supplies, the trees surrounding, and for good measure, your trusty companion, dog. or god, if that's what you're into. i like interaction myself, so i'd go with the living, moving, breathing stuff.
no hiding.

i'd love to do it. just take off for a year.
learn.

i want to read into the wild.

http://www.bobkull.org/Canadian_Geographic_Article.pdf
i found this article in a canadian geographic a few years ago, still love it.

i'm lazy, and am actually going to go do things now, so there's no list.

instead, here's a blank space that you can pretend is a list!

end list.

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in fact there is stuff here because i don't know how to leave a blank spacem but you won't be able to see this unless you highlight it so you cares. if you do happen to highlight this, sorry for the bad grammar. i can't see what i'm typing.

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even less of a point.

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Little Goldfish by *whorer-movie on deviantART

no point.

damnitt.

Ever had a moment where all you can think of are obscenities? That's what I'm having right now.

FUCK.

No, more like;;;

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHCK.

Only that sounds kind of moany, so, uh;;;

FUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK?

Sure.

fuck. fuck. fuck.

Anyway, how was your day?

The My To Do List List

• Catch up on Science articles.
• Write Romeo & Juliet review.
• Get Seussical attendance list.
• Get money to buy Seussical tickets.
• Finish Christmas shopping, especially for Kiers.
• Clean room.
• Do laundry.
• face the facts.
  Seussical was awesome yesterday. We had an exagerated run through, and it was really fun to watch.

mack & cheese.

So, I've seen these things in vlogs and blogs and such, these anonymous honesty things about what you think about people in your life. I'm half way between thinking it's really lame and liking it. So I decided to do it. I mean, lame is the new cool, right?

The Anonymous "You" List (of sorts)

You - are not very sure of yourself sometimes, but in others you are more confident than I could ever be. I've only known you for a while, but I feel that you are a great friend. You are hysterically funny, incredibly polite, super talented and I love you!

You - are so artistic & fierce (ha!), I'm jealous. I love talking with you because you're smart and say it like it is, but you make me laugh at the same time. I think you could do anything, but you're stubborn and wouldn't do it unless you wanted to! Your love of ketchup kind of weirds me out, but that's okay. :P

You - have incredible values and you know what you believe in. I hope you stay like that forever. I look up to for it. I think you are strange, not the typical strange, I just don't think I've ever met anyone else like you. You are very curious, but I think it's because you care. You have a beautiful voice, and a really funny laugh!

You - I love you, first off. Sometimes you drive me crazy. But you know this and it's mutual, so we're good. I think you understand me better than a lot of people (sometimes). We can finish each other's sentences! We've known each other for a few years, but you are the only friend I really stayed in touch with when I left, I'm sure this means something.

You - are an amazing girl, and I miss you A LOT! You are one of the few people I truly believe I could tell anything to, and you would back me up. I will do the same for you. I want to keep in touch, but I'm awful at it and so are you! You are a bit of a flirt and are sometimes mean, but so am I, and I think it's just how we are, no harm done. You are also one of the few people I think I could be roomies with, because I'm always happy to see you!

You - I'm sorry for all the pain you have suffered, and that I wasn't there for you, in fact, that I just made it worse. I think you are a great person. I'm not sure of how close of friends we can become after what has come between us... but I'm willing to test it.

You - are very playful, which is both a good and bad thing about you. We should hang out more often, and get down to having those babies!

You Two- I MISS YOU. The comforting thing is that I know I will never lose contact with you. You are a very, very large part of my life. I care about you so much. You are the funniest, most creative, kind, caring, cute, mature for your age, AWESOME! people I know. I'm nervous about you guys getting older more than I am about me getting older, but I know you will be wonderful people, and that you will always be inspiration to me in every way. Because I should stop talking about you together, specifically;

You - are a fairy princess. You have a beautiful imagination, and more determination and perseverance in your toes that I do in my whole body! You are brutally honest, which isn't always considered to be the best thing, but I love it about you. I'm sorry if I'm a bit of a bully sometimes. I will always love you.

You - are incredibly brave and adventurous. You are almost like a storybook hero in the ways that you face problems. You are so kind and respectful. You always want to learn, about anything and everything, your collections prove it! I can say so many "corny" positive things about you, but every single one would be true. - The twinkle in your eye when you smile is beautiful.

I could say so many more things about so many more people, but for tonight, that's all.