Oh So Exhausted

I'm so incredibly tired out these days.
I say that I'm tired of people, of things, of bullshit.
But really, I'm tired of myself.
Of saying things I don't mean. Of not spending enough time with the people that I really want to. Of not knowing when to keep my mouth shut and not knowing when to open it. Of being awkward. Of avoiding situations and people. Of being intimidated. Of not finishing things I start. Of never ever having any alone time. Of not eating healthy. Of not accomplishing my goals. Of not improving. Of being a hypocrite. Of not taking the time. Of not standing up. Of not standing out. Of not giving people space when they so obviously want it. Of not lending a hand when they so obviously need it. Of not focusing on the positive.



I need a smack in the face.
And a rant.
A good one.
A happy one.
I would like that.
I would appreciate that.
Goodnight.