my life might be simpler if procrastination wasn't invented.

lower case letters are fun.
i procrastinate way too much.

i am right now. i should be doing math homework, or doing that review, or making art. but instead i'm sitting here, my top half bundled up in a sweatshirt, my bottom half only in boxers and hella cold. in my basement. in the dark.
just typing.

reading stories about people isolated in the wilderness makes me happy. there's something about them that attracts me. i love the simplicity and the naturalness of it.
no one is around. it's just you, your supplies, the trees surrounding, and for good measure, your trusty companion, dog. or god, if that's what you're into. i like interaction myself, so i'd go with the living, moving, breathing stuff.
no hiding.

i'd love to do it. just take off for a year.
learn.

i want to read into the wild.

http://www.bobkull.org/Canadian_Geographic_Article.pdf
i found this article in a canadian geographic a few years ago, still love it.

i'm lazy, and am actually going to go do things now, so there's no list.

instead, here's a blank space that you can pretend is a list!

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in fact there is stuff here because i don't know how to leave a blank spacem but you won't be able to see this unless you highlight it so you cares. if you do happen to highlight this, sorry for the bad grammar. i can't see what i'm typing.

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even less of a point.

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Little Goldfish by *whorer-movie on deviantART

no point.

damnitt.

Ever had a moment where all you can think of are obscenities? That's what I'm having right now.

FUCK.

No, more like;;;

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHCK.

Only that sounds kind of moany, so, uh;;;

FUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK?

Sure.

fuck. fuck. fuck.

Anyway, how was your day?

The My To Do List List

• Catch up on Science articles.
• Write Romeo & Juliet review.
• Get Seussical attendance list.
• Get money to buy Seussical tickets.
• Finish Christmas shopping, especially for Kiers.
• Clean room.
• Do laundry.
• face the facts.
  Seussical was awesome yesterday. We had an exagerated run through, and it was really fun to watch.

mack & cheese.

So, I've seen these things in vlogs and blogs and such, these anonymous honesty things about what you think about people in your life. I'm half way between thinking it's really lame and liking it. So I decided to do it. I mean, lame is the new cool, right?

The Anonymous "You" List (of sorts)

You - are not very sure of yourself sometimes, but in others you are more confident than I could ever be. I've only known you for a while, but I feel that you are a great friend. You are hysterically funny, incredibly polite, super talented and I love you!

You - are so artistic & fierce (ha!), I'm jealous. I love talking with you because you're smart and say it like it is, but you make me laugh at the same time. I think you could do anything, but you're stubborn and wouldn't do it unless you wanted to! Your love of ketchup kind of weirds me out, but that's okay. :P

You - have incredible values and you know what you believe in. I hope you stay like that forever. I look up to for it. I think you are strange, not the typical strange, I just don't think I've ever met anyone else like you. You are very curious, but I think it's because you care. You have a beautiful voice, and a really funny laugh!

You - I love you, first off. Sometimes you drive me crazy. But you know this and it's mutual, so we're good. I think you understand me better than a lot of people (sometimes). We can finish each other's sentences! We've known each other for a few years, but you are the only friend I really stayed in touch with when I left, I'm sure this means something.

You - are an amazing girl, and I miss you A LOT! You are one of the few people I truly believe I could tell anything to, and you would back me up. I will do the same for you. I want to keep in touch, but I'm awful at it and so are you! You are a bit of a flirt and are sometimes mean, but so am I, and I think it's just how we are, no harm done. You are also one of the few people I think I could be roomies with, because I'm always happy to see you!

You - I'm sorry for all the pain you have suffered, and that I wasn't there for you, in fact, that I just made it worse. I think you are a great person. I'm not sure of how close of friends we can become after what has come between us... but I'm willing to test it.

You - are very playful, which is both a good and bad thing about you. We should hang out more often, and get down to having those babies!

You Two- I MISS YOU. The comforting thing is that I know I will never lose contact with you. You are a very, very large part of my life. I care about you so much. You are the funniest, most creative, kind, caring, cute, mature for your age, AWESOME! people I know. I'm nervous about you guys getting older more than I am about me getting older, but I know you will be wonderful people, and that you will always be inspiration to me in every way. Because I should stop talking about you together, specifically;

You - are a fairy princess. You have a beautiful imagination, and more determination and perseverance in your toes that I do in my whole body! You are brutally honest, which isn't always considered to be the best thing, but I love it about you. I'm sorry if I'm a bit of a bully sometimes. I will always love you.

You - are incredibly brave and adventurous. You are almost like a storybook hero in the ways that you face problems. You are so kind and respectful. You always want to learn, about anything and everything, your collections prove it! I can say so many "corny" positive things about you, but every single one would be true. - The twinkle in your eye when you smile is beautiful.

I could say so many more things about so many more people, but for tonight, that's all.

I Got Shot.

Today was ridiculously awesome. First of all, school went by relatively fast, and I didn't fall asleep in Pre Cal, which is good. But the actual ridiculously awesome part is that after school, my friends Ro & Rae came to my place and we set up a little studio for a photo shoot!
Rae is a crazy fashionista, and for her final Graphics project she's making some sort of fashion magazine... So I got to splatter paint all over my face and be photo-d.
The result;;;

PHOTOS BY RAE.

So yeah, fun day.

The Christmas Wish-List

1. A yellow 8gb iPod nano.
2. CD's - I particularily want Great Lake Swimmers self titled album, The Weakerthans Reconstruction Site, any albums by Sleater-Kinney, Death Cab, The New Pornographers, Coldplay & mixes from my bro and sis.
3. BOOKS. anything worth reading, or that will be something funny & cool to have in my library.
4. Art. Art for my wall, art supplies. Whatever. I would especially like a new sketch pad.
5. Scarves, mittens, hats, leg warmers, sweaters, anything homemade, warm, and/or knitted/crocheted.

REMEMBER J.C.

I walked around all day today with "remember j.c." written on my hand. Why? you may ask. Well, I want to decorate my locker with lots of pictures of Jesus. Not exactly sure why, I just think it would be kind of funny because both my locker partner and I are very un-religious. But mostly just because I want to see peoples' reactions to a locker entirely covered in JESUS.
I also wrote that I needed to call various people, not unusual these days. I seem to be mucho busy, probably attributing to why I'm stressed out all the time.

One of my friends from the little town I lived in last year called, and I'm going to be his grad escort. Which should be okay, I'm just not so stoked about the whole wearing a dress posing for pictures part. But whatever, I was going to be going anyways. I think it's kind of ridiculous that all, or the majority my friends from there are graduating. It's odd. They're not the kind of people that grow up. But, now they will be. Moving out & going to university/college, getting careers, and making babies (k, maybe not that so much, but you never know). I feel so old and boring talking about it, and I'm not even the one who's graduating.

In a scene in drama I'm a thirty-six year old man who still acts like an eleven year old. I can relate. I'm not ready for all the responsibility and relationship stuff and shit that comes with growing up. I really would like to be Peter Pan. Or at least avoid the opposite sex for another ten years (isn't that what parents want? not mine per say, they don't really care, I just mean like the stereotypical protective parent). I just don't want to deal with it.

DEAL.
fuck no.

JESUS BRYCE, STOP SWEARING.
okay, probably a good plan, i mean;
"I've got a pretty goddamn dirty mouth."
"Do NOT take the Lord's name in vain!"
"Hiissssss!"
"I can take it!"
"Blond hair, blue eyes! How'd that happen?"
"Serve me with the cake!"
"I like red hunks!"
"It's not my fault."

JESUS BRYCE, STOP SPEAKING IN THIRD PERSON AND NOT MAKING ANY SENSE WHATSOEVER.
ack.
Now for a quote,
"DON'T GET HURT. BUT DO YOU KNOW WHAT HURTS? YOUR ASSUMPTIONS HURT AND HOW DARE YOU REQUEST MY SILENCE." -pdktf

Uhhhh, since that was a book quote, how about a list?

The Books That I Have Read Recently Or Am Currently Reading Or Plan To Read In The Near Future List

• Homecoming (for the fourth? time, it's one of my very favourites if not my absolute)
• Gidget (LOVE the movie, LOVE the book!)
• Twilight (can't say I think it deserves the hype)
• Fight Club (loving it so far)
• The Life of Pi (sounds like it should be good, I'm really into wilderness stuff right now, and I think it might be sort of wilderness-ie)
• The Bromeliad (lent to me by my brother who is a crazy Terry Pratchett fan, I'm stoked, because I loved the one book of his that I read, which according to the bro is not even one of his better works)
• Pay It Forward (again, really like the movie, so excited to read it)

CHEEEEESE.

So, uh, so much for posting once a week, eh?
I haven't written anything in a very long time, on blog or elsewhere, so today, I am writing without boundaries (and apparently, with lots of commas.) Not sure if I'll have a list today, I'm just going to continue typing and see where it takes me.

Today I feel kind of lame. I feel like I'm somehow not being myself/doing the shit that I want to do. This might be because of the fact that I kind of sort of, have a boyfriend. Which shouldn't make me feel as awkward as it does. I don't know. The whole thing kind of gives me the heebee-geebies. I'm not sure why. It's like, too typical teen. You know? I feel like I should be less predictable. Too norm. And I'm not exactly sure if there are "requirments" or something. Really. Are we supposed to be together in every waking moment, hold hands in the halls, change our facebook status (ack) and whatev? I feel like teen relationships are more for the people watching them than the people in them. And I'm with Bv. Teen love? Not so much.
Wow! I'm really positive, eh? I don't know. It's just nice to be able to spurt random shit out to the web in general, but knowing (I'm positive, I think) that none of my friends read this blog.

HAVE A CHEESE FILLED FUTURE.
-my niece.

I think I have far too much stinky cheese, far to little fattening yummy cheese.

I AM THE CHEESE.
-a book I need to read again because it was really good but I read it in sixth grade and didn't really understand all of it, plus I dn't remember it at all, except for this one chase scene and something about clam chowder.

I'm drinking tea. It's rather nice.

So, this past weekend I went to a town called Teulon (sp?) with my friend Morgo to visit our friend Teesha. It was a lot of fun and we were total nerds. Honestly. Total and utterly embarassing nerds. So, there's this video game. Called Gears of War. The second one just came out a little while ago.... and the three of us are a little bit obsessed with it (Morgo pre-ordered the special edition, and bought the novel). So we decided to dress up as the characters and then fight it out. In the process we broke two hammocs. It was pretty funny.
We also ate a lot of pea soup, and chips (ack, waaaay too many chips), watched the first four Saw movies (Donnie Wahlberg makes me giggle, oh New Kids on the Block), and played lots of random board games.
Only bad thing about the trip was that I had to sleep on an air mattress, and now my neck is cracking all the time. xD

My school is doing Seussical the Musical for this year's play. Somehow I was dragged into being the second stage manager. It's kind of annoying, because I have to be at all these rehearsals, but I don't really do anything. I don't really mind that much, I just like to complain.
I have had the songs stuck in my head all day, that's probably the worst part.

Well, I think that's all I'm going to write about for now.
I guess I'll make a short list.

The My Favourite Kinds of Cheeses List

1. Brie
2. Gouda
3. Feta

Muse. Ick.

So, this last year I've really started to have a sense of the music that I do and don't like. I'm really into indie, and some various other stuff....

The List of Bands I've Been Listening To List (in alphabetical order -ohhh)

Alexisonfire, Arcade Fire,
Badly Drawn Boy, Barenaked Ladies, Bedouin Soundclash, Bloc Party
Cat Power, The Clash, Coldplay, The Cranberries, The Cure
Dave Matthews Band, Death Cab for Cutie
Elliot Smith
Feist, Fionn Regan
Great Lake Swimmers, Greg Macpherson
Indigo Girls, Iron Maiden
Jack Johnson, The Jealous Girfriends
The Killers, Kimya Dawson
Matthew Good Band, Metric, The Misfits, The Most Serene Republic
Natalie Merchant, Neverending White Lights, New Order, The New Pornographers
The Organ
The Paperbacks
Regina Spektor, Rage Against the Machine, Rufus Wainwright
The Sadies, Sea Wolf, Sixty Stories, Skydiggers, Sleater-Kinney, The Smiths, Spoon, The Subtitles
The Weakerthans, The White Stripes, Wolf Parade
Yeah Yeah Yeahs

My All Time Favourite Songs List

Coldplay - Fix You, Yellow
Death Cab - Glove Compartment
Matthew Good - Sun Up Running for Home
Michael Andrews - Mad World
Otis Redding - Try A Little Tenderness
The Weakerthans - The Reasons, Benediction
Great Lake Swimmers - Moving Pictures Silent Films

Kings of Leon - Knocked Up

I Have a Wee Bit of an Obsession...

So, I have this problem. I... am.... in.... love... with....
DINOSAURS.
My addiction is fueled by my friends because I have a collection of about thirty dinosaurs that were all gifts.
So, a couple weeks ago, I was at my little friends', and the older one, Benny had this amazing book about which dinosaurs would be best as domesticated house pets. I looooved it. It was set up like a dog book, and showed different personality quirks as well as tendencies (whether they were easily trained, worryingly dumb, or worryingly smart, if they ate other pets, or BABIES... etc.) and it showed how big they were compared to a human. Unfortunately I do not remember the title, but I intend to find out at buy that book.

The What I Would Name My Pet Dinosaur if Dinosaurs Were Not Extinct and Were Domesticated List

A) Alfred, Arkansan, Agnes
B) Blunie, Beverly, Benjamin, Broccoli
C) Chrysanthemum, Chubs
D) Dorothy, Debbie
E) Ednas, Esther
F) Fredborg, Finch, Freeman
G) Giesbrecht
H) Holly
I) Isaac
J) Jeremiah
K) Keifer
L) Leighton
M) Molly, Mariadoc
N) N.
O) Othello, Oregano
P) Pippin
Q) Quirks
R) Rebbecca
S) Sadie
T) Timber
U) Ugg
V) Vivienne
W) Winnie, Worcestershire
X) Xander
Y) Yij
Z) Zimbabwe

This list will be continued lata, bee-otch.

Friendly is a Pedophile Word

I got asked out on Friday of last week and it totally caught me off guard. I said no, but when said person asked, someone else close by said "he's friendly." And I was like, "wow, that's kind of a creepy word."
So in that theme, the list for today:

The Bad Pick Up Lines List

1. "Bond. James Bond."
2. "If I could rearrange the alphabet, I would put U and I together."
3. "Can I buy you a drink or do you just want the money?"
4. "If you were a new hamburger at McDonald's, you would be McGorgeous. "
5. "Hi, I'm a necrophiliac, how good are you at playing dead?"
6. "Playing doctor is for kids! Let's play gynecologist!"
7. "Are we related? Do you want to be?"
8. "Hi. Are you legal?"
9. "Hi. You'll do."
10. "I've got a pimple on my butt, wanna see it?"
11. "You look just like my mother!"
12. "You're ugly but you intrigue me."
13. "The voices in my head told me to come over and talk to you."
14. "If you were a booger I'd pick you first."
15. "If I were to ask you for sex, would your answer be the same as the answer to this question?"

So that's the list. There are so many, whether creepy or cheesy, but those are the ones I found that I liked.
Ciao.

An Introduction : Life in a List

I had an idea last night to make a zine entirely composed of lists, but I figured a blog entirely composed of lists would be much easier. Also, hopefully keeping a blog will force me to improve or at least keep up my writing skills.
My goal is to post at least once a week, and make sure that all posts have a list in them...
So to introduce my random blog of lists of all shapes, sizes and subjects, I'll start with a list of the most influential things in my life.

The List of Things That Were a Part of Making Me Me List

1. My mom and birth dad separating when I was a year old. This began a very stressful element of my childhood, and also meant that I had very different experiences than my siblings growing up.
2. Being babysat by Wendy, and knowing her two kids Benny and Abi, and her husband Warren. They are my second family, and Benny and Abi are the kid bro and sis I never had. I've known them both since they were babies and we've all learnt a lot from each other. They are the raddest kids I know and I'm sure we really will be BFF.
3. Learning to read & write. I have a really hard time talking about problems, and writing enabled me to convey emotion in a different way. Reading allowed me to experience all sorts of adventures I otherwise may not have been able to.
4. My mom and dad getting married. It caused me to change my entire lifestyle. I switched houses and schools, my sister moved out, and I'm sure it changed me more than anything else.
5. Going to camp for the first time. I was out of my comfort zone a little bit, but I met some amazing people and had a ton of fun. It made me think about everything, and gave me a place to escape to when other parts of my life were less than perfect.
6. Moving to Plumas. This was totally and completely out of my comfort zone, but I learnt so much about myself and met amazing people.
7. Finding music I enjoy, watching cheesy movies & making and observing art, all of which were heavily influenced by my big brother & sister.

Yeah, and that's what I can think of at the moment.
Peace. :)