Jenny For Short

Today was a pretty crap day. Not that anything bad actually happened, just that I didn't do anything, and kind of moped and felt shitty about myself. No particular reason. Just the regular being stressed out about 'growing up' and the fact that I'm super unorganized and have no idea what I want to do in my future. I've thought about careers quite a bit in the last few days for some reason. I want a job. Not a career. Which sounds kind of odd right? It's just that in my mind a 'career' is something you go to school for and then you do for forever. Why can't you have a bunch of odd jobs? I don't want to do the same thing my whole life. But I feel pressure to have to decide exactly what I want to do, and I just have no fucking clue.

I also am going to have a fair amount of homework to catch up on when I go back to school because of the week and a half I was gone for Suessical. And my parents are going on vacation for two weeks, and I have exams at the end of the month, and I'm turning sixteen.

I think the compilation of these things is stressing me out. I want to be Peter Pan, in that I don't want to grow up.

But I'll stop complaining now, because I want to be in a better mood, and because I really have had a great holiday.....

The Awesome Things That Occurred During My Holidays List

1. IMPROV! What better way to enjoy yourself that to get together with a bunch of funky folk and get funny?
2. FRIENDS, CHILLIN'. I got to spend some time with my lil' friends about a week ago, and we ate pizza and dressed up in David Bowie wigs and shot nerf darts a each other and watched movies and all sorts of fun things!
3. BEING FIERCE. I also chilled with my fierce crew, and we anticipated and prepared for a zombie outbreak. Yep. We also exchanged gifts. I got some amazing things, including a new cardigan, a Peter MANSBRIDGE pin, and a certificate declaring my un-official Ukrainian-ness. Oh, yes, and pink hair dye!!!
4. ACTUALLY VIEWING THE ACT OF FIERCE OCCUR. My house was subject of another of Rae's photo shoots, which was tons of fun and meant I got to spend some time with her and Bv.
5. HANGIN' W/ THE FAM. I got to see a bunch of my family, eat good food & exchange gifts & hugs & convo.
6. VIVIENNE. On Christmas Eve of 2008, Vivienne, my gorgeous, yellow iPod nano was born.
7. BOOKS. I got a bunch of books for Christmas, which usually doesn't happen. So it was awesome. I got a collection of stories for young people by various authors, A Tree Grows In Brooklyn, April Raintree, The Zombie Survival Guide and a book of 250 crochet stitches! I'm stoked.
8. SPANAKOPITA. 'nough said.

And there's more than that, I just have a bad memory. So, I had a pretty great holiday, I just don't want it to end.
Blah.

Here I come January.
(Haha - one of my imaginary friends when I was a child was named January. The other was Asia.)

Oh yes, and happy Christmas, Chanukkah, and New Year! 2009, eh?